Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc

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merge two films: Cradle 2 the Grave Encounters

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 04:47 UTC

You know, I have a series of three alarms on my phone to make sure I put my little computer away before this kind of thing happens. And it didn't go so badly tonight, I learned some stuff about myself and didn't lose my shit at anybody who isn't me. But still. It's reliable that this happens.

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 04:45 UTC

...the past tense of the verb "to post" is past...

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 04:45 UTC

And now that I have successfully posted through it and come out the other side like the proverbial Andy Dufresne... it is funny that I can look at skeets like this and just know I was suffering. I used to get absolutely plowed and rant about how, etymologically, the Joker is a poser next to Harley.

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 04:41 UTC

I mean, I don't dislike it. I would have been applauding someone else making it. It's just unsettling, like finding someone who is a lot like me but not me was using my account without my knowledge. Which the reveal (I was drunk skeeting) does explain.

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 04:39 UTC

On a somewhat more sweet note, I'm now remembering when Jack waited to watch a YouTube video about a clown church in England* until I could watch it with him and I was surprised he thought of me as being particularly into clown stuff (* A specific one, not just that general Anglican nonsense.)

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 04:32 UTC

I'm not helping myself trying to put these pieces together. I thought a post that day was weird, then I thought a lot of my posts were weird, and I think I've solved as much of the mystery as there is to be solved

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 04:30 UTC

All good. My midnight freakout threads aren't my most well articulated

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 04:29 UTC

I still don't know for sure what this skeet was about, the one that I knew on sight must have been *about* something and then found confirmation of it. But from the timing, being not long after I started drinking... I guess it probably all tied together.

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 04:25 UTC

So conservatively, I started drinking at one in the afternoon that day, and from this selfie, we went grocery shopping like three and a half hours later, and from my later skeets, I drank more when I got home.

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 04:23 UTC

...oh. Oh. Mystery solved, and big fucking mystery: mommy issues. This thread, which starts off with this nice picture and lovely memory, turned into a spiral when my dead mother showed up (and special guest star Neil Gaiman).

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 04:19 UTC

There are, but I don't think two weeks before. The point of saying it was before was emphasizing it's not stroke-related

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 04:17 UTC

...here's me saying the original skeet (the one that started me down this rabbit hole, the origin of the quote skeet chain at the top of this quoted skeet's thread) was inspired by something in particular and now I really want to know

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 04:14 UTC

But what was going on that day

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 04:11 UTC

And I think the reason this is freaking me out is that part of me recognized drunk posting, that's the difference I was talking about. ...oh, and also I guess it's that time of night where stuff freaks me out.

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 04:10 UTC

Yeah, yeah. Confirmed that I was drinking heavily enough to have an uncorrected typo at 3 in the afternoon. And going through it, this skeet is a deprecating but accurate description of my life phrased an ironic joke. Don't know what I was going through, but I was going through it.

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 04:07 UTC

I don't know if this seems at all out of character to anyone who isn't me but my skeets that day all seem slightly off to me and I also don't remember any of these ...oh, I was drunk

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 04:03 UTC

There's a lot of truly random (as in, no real pattern to what I lost) shit I forgot in the stroke but this skeet... about half the info in it is stuff I know that I know, but the other half, if I saw this out of context without my account attached I'd swear someone else wrote it.

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 04:01 UTC

Went looking for an old tweet of mine and I found it but it's attached to another skeet that I was so curious about the context of it I'm looking at my other skeets from that day, and I just. I. What. I want to emphasize this is two weeks before the stroke

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Aug 25, 2023 at 23:25 UTC

DIMENSION 20 IN BALLS The ball... Fantasy High: is Riz. The Unsleeping City: is dropping. ACoC: is candy. Misfits & Magic: is alive. A Starstruck Odyssey: is rolling up. Coffin Run: has slain the master. ACoFaf: is a masquerade. Neverafter: is over. Mentopolis: needs to be touched, NOW.

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Alexandra Merideth Erin [she/her] - in my Brain Damage arc @alexandraerin.com [ View ] Aug 26, 2023 at 17:35 UTC

Funniest thing in Shakespeare. Hamlet: Shit, I can't kill him while he's praying all pious and holy for forgiveness. That's a free trip to heaven Claudius: Dear God, I know that my soul is bound for hell unless I renounce the fruits of my evil schemes but have you considered I really don't want to

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