You know what I would really like? Just one day without feeling afraid. Hell, I'll take a day just without ANXIETY.
I'll probably delete this for being too real, but I would like to not be constantly, desperately afraid for my own survival. Existentially and otherwise.
I'm so sorry. I wish there were no good reason to be afraid; you have enough on your plate with all the work of healing. The world is being so loudly ugly to trans people. But you're not alone. I see you, I'll always stick up for you, and I'm here if you need someone to be real with.
Personal question:
Do you use recreational drugs such as pot? Not promoting it. I was addicted for 18 years...
After quitting I realized it was actually CONTRIBUTING to my anxiety and not relieving it
Withdrawals tricked me into thinking it helped but it was simply an addiction.