People talk a lot about “second puberty” in terms of the physical transformation and hormonal sensitivity / turbulence, which are of course both important. But, less is said about the social adjustment and personal realization sides of this experience. (1/14)
2nd adolescence is an absolute trip, indeed. i appreciate you marking that it can take an extended amount of time. it's not just the learning & building, but also the unlearning & dismantling that goes on.
As kids, puberty is this period of time where, on top of physical and hormonal changes, kids develop a sense of self through testing limits. This manifests as trying our new personas, clothing, interests, etc. (2/14)
The only thing I think matters in this analysis is the pressure we all feel from cis people trying to make our lives miserable. Not just on social media with them trying to get us to fight each other, but in the meta sense. As I've told my close friends and family: being trans in this world is tough
I had lunch with a group of cis women the other day, and they were reminiscing about terrible makeup and fashion choices they made when teenagers because that's when you learn what works for you and what doesn't. I laughed and said when you're trans you have to go through that at 40
Yup. Missing out on the critical identity-building steps from childhood through teen years (which entails fundamental transformation into an adult!) is existentially brutal. Fixing that is absolutely something late transitioners have to endure.
I perhaps remember deadname having no identify
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Thank you for formulating this so elegantly 💛 It’s so important for trans liberation and mental health that we lend ourselves and each other the grace to be cringe, slutty, messy and adolecent on our own terms in the process of exploring self, even if that “phase” never ends.