Beth

Cooperstreaming ♿️ @cooperstreaming.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 06, 2024 at 03:27 UTC

Netflix just put a bunch of comedies late 80's early 90's comedies in the vein of "Can a GIRL have a JOB?!" & "This MAN has to PARENT can you believe it?!" into my recs cuz I liked a movie called Serial Mom. A John Waters film that dares ask "Can a MOM murder everyone in her suburban town?!?"

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Beth @elizabethoutside.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 20:34 UTC

a matter of personal taste, it did organically fit the rest of the film.

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Beth @elizabethoutside.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 20:34 UTC

things (like everyone in the fun center birthday room freezing, her head going partway into the tv as a teen, the cash grab booth reading "You're Dying" or something like that, her seeing the tv glow inside her torso after cutting herself open, etc.). Although the ending...that's just

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Beth @elizabethoutside.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 20:33 UTC

giving Amber Benson a surprise role). And the ending was well, existentially depressing. Allegorically, Isabel never transitioned and figuratively died. Narratively, she couldn't ever bring herself to bury herself and escape, even when the reality around her clearly was doing impossible

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Beth @elizabethoutside.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 20:33 UTC

after a single convo and being pushed to the ground. They were the Pink Opaque! It'd be like Buffy shrugging and leaving Willow to die in some alt dimension after barely trying anything and having plenty more opportunity (nice touch btw, using Buffy font for the Pink Opaque show, and

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Beth @elizabethoutside.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 20:33 UTC

a life of melancholy, where the meaningless years go by like seconds and a person doesn't grow (Isabel working that minimum wage fun center for 20y until she's 40y or so). Brutal. Anyway, not so sure how I felt about it as a movie. Narratively, I don't think Tara would have given up on Isabel

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Beth @elizabethoutside.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 20:32 UTC

bleachers with Tara). Certain shows exposing truths about one's self that one then lives through vicariously. The fear so many have in acknowledging the truth of who they are, looking inward to their glow (that maybe they connected with via a show) and running away...and then continuing to live

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Beth @elizabethoutside.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 20:32 UTC

just spoke to in my own experience. Feeling hollow, without an identity/a figurative heart (my deadname was 100% repressed, had no sense of self and reality). How that lack of identity impacts everything, like something as simple as to whom one is attracted (HS sexuality convo on the

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Beth @elizabethoutside.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 20:32 UTC

like a dream as my actual memories and flood back in...I perhaps had enough difficulty already with feeling like none of this is real before watching I saw the TV Glow last night. As a trans allegory, I think this movie succeeded quite well. Isabel's "lifelong" struggles reflected in everything I

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Beth @elizabethoutside.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 20:31 UTC

to wake her up I have to kill myself. Oh, not me often half-convinced that this is just a game or prison or rehabilitation sim, I'm perhaps meant to persist as long as possible or find the courage to kill myself. And that I'll wake up in say a medical pod and this entire existence will fade

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Beth @elizabethoutside.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 20:31 UTC

Oh, not me in the past perhaps weeping in existential pain to the feeling that the real Elizabeth (who was born with her body), the one who was supposed to have been, is tossing and turning in her sleep to a nightmare....dreaming that she isn't herself. And I/my life are her nightmare. And

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Beth @elizabethoutside.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 20:30 UTC

Finally watched: "I Saw the TV Glow." Oooooffff. Uncomfortably on the nose. ****Spoilers**** 1/

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