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Populus Ursus @populus89.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 03, 2024 at 16:55 UTC

...self care... work? wish I had those irl I like Lugia 🎨

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 07, 2024 at 21:31 UTC

I can only imagine the bill. I had a CT Scan, an the last time I ended up in the ER and needed one the bill was like $6.5K, so... we'll see. =/ I'm not above asking for help on this one, 'cause like... if I don't, I'll never be able to recover. Maybe even literally.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 07, 2024 at 04:52 UTC

They gave me a specialist. I just have to get a referral.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 07, 2024 at 04:26 UTC

Nothing's made me realize my own mortality than these past two weeks. I'd be lying if I said I was doing okay. I've... I've been breaking down a lot. My entire body feels crippled, because it's just like extreme fatigue and unexplainable muscle ache. EVERYTHING just hurts.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 07, 2024 at 04:26 UTC

The urgent care doctor thought it was pneumonia, which is why she sent me to the ER. She said it looked like it was too advanced for her to treat, but the ER could give me a specialized antibiotic IV. Then I got to the ER and that's when they said it was something beyond even their skills, too. =|

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 07, 2024 at 04:21 UTC

Yeah. They honestly told me there was no point keeping me there because they don't even know what it is to be able to treat it. I can survive for now, but like... it's sapping my energy and strength hard, making working almost impossible.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 07, 2024 at 03:52 UTC

Just wanted to update: they're not all bleeding, but when they do, that's what's making me sick. I have all the symptoms of pneumonia (coughing blood), but it's... it's something different

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 07, 2024 at 03:48 UTC

My doctor was blunt with me. They don't know what it is, and they have no idea how to treat it. They can't treat something if they don't know what the treatment should be. The dude was blunt, but honest and nice. I have the next steps, I'll be working on them.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 07, 2024 at 03:47 UTC

It's holding up for now, just struggling in the record heat. We've been hitting almost 100 a day, and that's just a lot on anything. But I can if needed, yes.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 07, 2024 at 03:07 UTC

I know the facility where they want me to go, I just have to get back in touch with my old primary care doctor and get a referral.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 07, 2024 at 02:59 UTC

The hospital literally had no idea what they were dealing with. Nobody there had seen anything like what I have (my lungs are covered in polyps, some bleeding, and my lungs fill with blood when one goes). I need to seek a specialist so they can figure out what "it" is.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 07, 2024 at 01:54 UTC

Out of the hospital. It's not pneumonia. It's something worse, and they can't help me. They recommended I seek pulmonary specialists across the state, because they've never seen anything like what I have. My lungs are full of bleeding lesions, some with holes. I need a health potion and a miracle.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 07, 2024 at 00:57 UTC

Above my hospital bed. Call Don't fall Llama

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 06, 2024 at 21:17 UTC

Diagnoses: pneumonia. Can't be treated by normal methods. They're asking me to go the ER. I have no insurance. I can't afford this. It's going to destroy me. I wanna die.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 06, 2024 at 19:19 UTC

At the doctors. Lost almost 100lbs since my last weigh in. Damn.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 06, 2024 at 13:12 UTC

I love going on Amazon and looking up a product and getting results like "cat brush for cats pet brush cat brush animal brush for cats brush" as like every other official product title.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 06, 2024 at 03:46 UTC

I am kind of amused though. I've been sweating so much I haven't had to pee. I didn't know that was really possible.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 06, 2024 at 03:41 UTC

Finally breaking down and going to see a doctor tomorrow. This is... this is not getting better, but worse. I am so not doing okay.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 19:56 UTC

I like autumn. Give me pretty technicolor leaves and spoopiness and all the fall harvest goodness like ciders and pies and all the amazing smells of fall.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 19:55 UTC

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 19:37 UTC

That's like an $8K bill, man.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 19:05 UTC

It's so hot today my AC can not keep up. Holy shit, I hate that this heat is "normal" now.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 18:05 UTC

Yeah, but things like that cost money, and it's a luxury I can not afford.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 07:23 UTC

I don't think you understand the severity of some of them.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 07:17 UTC

Like... I can't face my family anymore because of the shit I know. It weighs on me like an anchor. Knowing unfathomable truths that I can never tell anyone about. I fucking hate that he told me. I hate this curse. I hate how severe some of it is. Its torn me apart for years.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 07:14 UTC

Before my dad died he confessed everything to me. Like all his life sins and some of the worst shit in the world. It was some of the heaviest, most depressing stuff you could imagine. Some nights, like tonight, I just lay in bed and cry. I have no idea how to let this go. It hurts. I hurt.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 05:22 UTC

Yeah, I'm not anti-fireworks, I've just always found it kind of weird all the same.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 05:21 UTC

Well, it's not even that. Being LGBT+ automatically qualifies you to be a sex offender under P2025. It's like an automatic social death sentence.

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Neer @dragoneer.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 04:32 UTC

I've always find it weird we just blow up billions of dollars in fireworks a year just because. I know some people like them, and that's fine, but it's always been odd to me that we're basically just detonating money in colorful displays.

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