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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 01:56 UTC

this game is the stream that got me into jerma

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 11, 2024 at 00:04 UTC

Reposting because I kinda wanna try making a thing out of it. Y'all should share your bookshelves! I wanna see what's on everyone's shelves~

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 10, 2024 at 15:05 UTC

hey besties, thanks for snagging a few commissions and the kind words in these trying times haha. i dont know yet if i will move, but im keeping it in the back of my head. i'm going to try and repair this still. thanks for sticking it out with me <3

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 10, 2024 at 01:45 UTC

hung out with a friend today. I needed that. She tells me she thinks the relationship is salvageable. And I really hope she’s right.

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 09, 2024 at 18:11 UTC

contemplating getting a cameo from nana of nanalan' for myself because i need a cute old lady puppet to give me kind words in these trying times c':

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 09, 2024 at 14:37 UTC

i'm in desperate need of help, please. i still can't find work and i really have to consider moving

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 08, 2024 at 22:52 UTC

thank you Nico ;; ❤️❤️❤️❤️

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 08, 2024 at 18:33 UTC

i -really- need to watch this show. it just feels like it's everything i like in one thing

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 08, 2024 at 18:33 UTC

send an edible arrangement

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 08, 2024 at 18:15 UTC

holy fuck

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 08, 2024 at 01:21 UTC

double-fist em

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 07, 2024 at 18:35 UTC

Toronto rentals be like: great location near nature. 2100/mo

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 07, 2024 at 16:44 UTC

'billy, i need a kitten!! they like kittens!'

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 07, 2024 at 16:41 UTC

watching robin williams interact with koko makes me cry every time ;;

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 07, 2024 at 14:12 UTC

theyre all like 1700/mo for less than 300 square feet like thats so nuts

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 07, 2024 at 00:00 UTC

I’ve also been collecting hockey cards. I don’t know how to tell if one is rare or worth money or anything, so I can’t tell if these ones are a flex or not but they’re really neat!!

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 06, 2024 at 16:53 UTC

once i got off the subway on queen st and got handed two free beers

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 13:35 UTC

Awwhr thank you so much ❤️❤️❤️ It would also just be groovy to talk more in general. I’ll DM you my discord later, if you use that?

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 13:26 UTC

thank you SO much. I really appreciate the help 🙏🙏🙏

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 13:25 UTC

it’s a lot of just…. I can’t believe it’s happening. We’ve never had any problems before. I would have hoped that if I did something he didn’t like, he would have mentioned it before it got worse. I’m scared now I’m losing my friend group too- I was so close with the rest of the band.

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 13:02 UTC

I did. I even reached out to a few that my therapist recommended. He wouldn’t do it. ;(

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 12:45 UTC

I just don’t know what other reason there could be? His mom and sister have told me that since meeting me he’s been so happy. I feel like I’ve ruined that now. I just don’t know what else it could have been.

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 12:43 UTC

my parents and the friend involved (well I wouldn’t say he’s involved but) have all said this can’t be just it, but it’s the only reason I’m getting and I do understand that it can hurt to see a partner kiss a friend, but not giving me a chance to do differently is killing me

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 12:40 UTC

Oh gosh don’t feel obligated at all but because I really -am- struggling, it’s here: ko-fi.com/shenanigansatyr Those are some of my biggest fears too and living through both at the same time makes me want to get hit by a car. 🫠 I wish I could offer some support for you there too. I’m sorry ;(

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 12:16 UTC

horrifying is the right word. I thought everything was okay until it wasn’t. then it was over before I could even try and fix anything. I even offered (and reached out to) couples counseling, but he wouldn’t do it.

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 12:14 UTC

I just wish he would have said something about it the first time. I would have stopped. He says that ‘when we enter into a monogamous relationship it should be obvious we don’t kiss each other’s friends’ but I didn’t even think of it as KISSING-kissing because this friend feels more like a brother

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 05, 2024 at 11:51 UTC

I’ll probably delete this later, but this is what’s been going on the past couple months. Slight CW for some passive self harm talk. I still feel like everything is my fault and I’ve ruined my own life. Maybe I’m just not supposed to have what I want.

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87cocktane [comms OPEN] @87octane.bsky.social [ View ] Jul 04, 2024 at 17:08 UTC

❤️❤️❤️❤️ I love this one!!

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