The aids quilt, circa 1996. There's no way to truly explain or express how I feel when I think that AIDS is a chronic but manageable condition today. It feels like fantasy. I want to go back in time and tell 14 year old me that someday there will be hope.
not only manageable--we now have effective prophylaxis against HIV, both pre-exposure and post-exposure. we have treatments for HIV patients that prevent AIDS and prevent further transmission. we're starting to make progress on vaccines. it's truly amazing to me just how far we've come medically
AZT hit the first clinical trials in the late 80s, it began to be available to many HIV+ persons in the early 90s, w/wide-scale availability of it & other drugs that helped w/the disease, in 1994. In Dec. of 93, my best friend, who was HIV+, unalived himself because he'd given up hope.
I want to go back in time and introduce Ronald Regan to a guillotine. I am so happy and so sad and so, so angry. It didn't have to be like that. We didn't have to grow up like that.
1996 was shortly before the news of the triple therapies was about to hit, wasnโt it. To go back & communicate just that news from 1997, the awkward anecdotes of people who had spent their life savings to find out they werenโt actually going to die right away, man, that would have been something.
I know that it's chronic-but-manageable and more preventable (hooray for PrEP!), but my gut reaction hasn't caught up. When I read anything about HIV I have to actively remind myself that it is not as swift, certain, and fatal as it was. I wonder if it'll ever sink in that things are different now.
I am 'Mysterious Illness Among Gay Men' old, and I was on Bsky when someone mentioned there's a prophylaxis for HIV, now.
I literally did a spit-take. I've lost too many good friends to that devil disease. Everyone has.
This post brought me to tears for similar reasons (and googling the introduction of protease inhibitors). I tried to explain to my teenage son, probably a tiktoker will do it better.
I just listened to the Fiasco podcast series about AIDS, and I was also stunned to remember how much the early years shaped my perceptions about sex, and how far we have come. Iโm so sorry for those who still mourn.